The junior offensive lineman revealed on Twitter how he attempted suicide and how college doctors helped him through his issues.
Columbus, Ohio – It is standard procedure for football coaches at the high school, college and professional levels to give updates on the physical health status of their players.
This is because it is very important for fans, students, boosters, alumni and other interested observers to know what is going on with their men before the game.
Ever since spring training 2021, a lot of people have wondered what’s going on with offensive lineman Harry Miller. Many were injured. News has been scarce.
On his Twitter feed on Thursday, Miller opened up about his life outside of the game. He talked about the ongoing fight to save his sanity and the fight to save his life from the moment his feet hit the ground when getting out of bed.
Everything looked good four weeks into the 2021 season on September 28. Ohio State head coach Ryan Day told the media that Miller was back with the team.
Day said he was glad to have him back and no further explanation was needed. It was really a big problem. The previous season, Miller played seven games at left guard for a Big Ten championship team that ventured all the way to the national championship game before losing to Alabama.
Miller missed spring training due to an undisclosed injury, but was still considered a favorite along with Luke Wypler for the starting center position ahead of fall practices.
He played 26 games against Maryland and Rutgers before disappearing for the rest of the season. There was a legitimate knee injury, but there was a lot more wrong with him.
Miller, a junior, wrote what really pained him and why he retired from the game. He attempted suicide before last season.
In his post yesterday he talked about scars on his throat and wrists caused by a box cutter.
Because he’s in the public eye, Miller said he doesn’t want people to wonder about him anymore.
“What’s wrong with Harry Miller?” he wrote. “That’s a good question. It’s a good enough question that I don’t know the answer to it, although I’ve asked it many times.
The following words from him on Twitter are hard to read and even harder to digest:
“Before last year’s season, I announced on Coach Day my intention to kill myself. He immediately put me in touch with Dr. Candice (Williams) and Dr. (Joshua) Norman, and I received the support I needed After a few weeks I tried my luck at football again with scars on my wrists and throat Maybe the scars were hard to see with my wrists bandaged Maybe “it was hard to see the scars through the bright colors of TV. Maybe the scars were hard to hear through all the talk shows and interviews. They’re hard to see and they’re easy to hide, but they sure hurt. There was a dead man on the TV set, but no one knew about it.
Miller approached the best person possible about his issues, and not because Day drafted him in 2017-18 as a five-star out of Buford, Georgia.
You see, Day’s father, Ray, committed suicide in January 1988.
During a pregame show on October 9, 2021, ESPN’s Tom Rinaldi featured Day talking about the day his father died and how it affected him for many years.
Day was 9 at the time and spoke of police coming to the front door of his home in Manchester, New Hampshire.
“It was a shock,” Day said. “I just remember the shock on people’s faces.”
It wasn’t until about two years later that Day found out about his father’s death. He became angry and resentful that the family had been left behind. He thought Ray was a coward.
“How could he do that? said Day.
Day talked about how it hurt after games to see fathers greeting their sons. Friends say that’s why he developed a deep competitive drive that landed him as a quarterback at the University of New Hampshire.
Years later, he realized that his father, who owned a series of convenience stores, had lost a fight trying to maintain his sanity.
In 2019, Day and his wife, Nina, donated $100,000 to establish a pediatric and adolescent wellness fund at Nationwide Children’s Hospital.
“The goal is to get into every community, every school, so that physical health and mental health are treated equally,” Nina said during Rinaldi’s article.
The Days sat down with their kids, son RJ and daughters Grace and Nina, and talked about what happened to their paternal grandfather and why.
“If we can get to the point where we can help approach things in different ways and look at (mental illness) without that stigma, then we’re going to make progress here,” Day said on ESPN.
Miller is much more than a very good football player. As an engineering student, he has a 4.0 grade point average and was honored as a Big Ten Distinguished Scholar and Ohio State Scholar-Athlete.
As for being a human being who doesn’t care about his neighbor, he’s even better at that. He made several mission trips to Los Brasiles, Nicaragua, working for a non-profit organization that runs a school and provides food and medicine to the underprivileged. The American Football Coaches Association put him on their Good Works team.
When he was presented to the media last August, journalists were blown away by the genius of the man. He quoted philosophers and classics and talked about history and music. His passion for the subject was astounding.
Miller was so informative that the Q&A never really dealt with football.
This Miller man has it so together, we thought. Few people knew what kind of pain he was feeling.
Day and academic psychologists, Miller said, have given him the support he needs. It looks like he’ll stick around the Buckeyes.
In his Twitter post, Miller said he was not angry, but hurt. He wrote that he learned love through “brutal sadness”.
“I am a life preserved by the kindness given to me by others when I could not produce kindness for myself,” he wrote.
Miller credited Day for setting up a mental health infrastructure for everyone associated with the team.
“I’m grateful that he let me find a new way to help others in the program,” he said.
Miller ended by writing, “God bless those who love. God bless those who mourn. And may God bless those who are hurting and only know how to share their hurt through anger, because they learn to love with me. I am okay.”
He provided the number for the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: 800-273-8255.